Looking at my passengers as I take a quick break from my nutrition class to run to the convenience store for a couple things that really matter today.

Nutrition.

It can take a long walk off a short pier.

And I’ve been called to this errand in the midst of taking an overly extensive class on the subject to continue my personal trainer and health coach certifications.

Some of you might be like - you’re a personal trainer and coach?

Turns out for almost 10 years now.

1 client. 2 if I count me.

Just put it out there on the website though, so doors are open.

Some of you might be like - you have a website?

samanthashearer.com - it was a coach that got me to do that - probably focused more around art than personal training.

Turns out they’re not mutually exclusive, and play quite nicely together.

Thought I did all this for myself. Not a single minute of it. It was all for them. It was all for her. It was all for him.

If I could just show them both how much I cared, how much they mean to me, how much I love them, by helping them stay well, alive and well, then I would be well, alive and well too.

The only thing I feel like I’ve learned is that that love I feel for them matters. More than nutrition that’s for sure. It matters because of one simple exercise of trying on loving myself the way I love them. A health coach taught me that.

They - my folks in this case - could never love me the way I love them because they aren’t me.

I’m so lucky that they loved me the best they could.

If I love myself with the ferocity, desperation, craving that I love them - I cry. I am weak from the immensity of this love I now get to feel.

And I can joyfully hop in the car to go pick them up whatever snacks they want.

Talk about a nutrition label!

Get all those servings of love!

Reflecting back on ourselves what we feel outwardly and taking what feels the best, and leaving the rest, it’s not ours, it never was.

Taking that weight off feels better than any diet.

So much more full and filled too.

** And yea-yea - everything in moderation, hence the convenience store run for Oreos and Chardonnay and not a cosco run as if I ran