Starting again with a small step, a little heart. 6x10” acrylic on board.
What a week!! Feels like it’s been a year. Or 10 years. I don’t even know anymore and I’m learning as long as I’m still here, keep trying.
While stuck inside, I decided I was sick of staring at all the unfinished paintings so started painting again with the motto - just paint.
I may want to finish one but more important is the action of simply doing and enjoying.
After this week (and this year!!) I have a whole new appreciation for not freezing up or getting stuck in place.
A catastrophic winter storm swept the nation this week. Leaving both the state I live in Oregon and a state I only made it a year in - Texas, in the most dire of situations. It’s been scary. While at the same time I’ve never been safer where I am now. Something I thought a year ago when we went into isolation due to COVID-19.
I may be sick of staring at the walls closing in with cabin fever but it’s better than some of the tricks my head has been playing on me for long enough.
This heart painting I picked up again after something close to a year. No. Looking back now, It’s been 2 years. Something froze me in place around painting and it’s taken this long to thaw out.
Photo taken February 14, 2019. I call it Misanthropic Valentine or maybe Languid Valentine.
Starting this little heart painting again and it appears here as it has taken exactly the amount of time to finish that it needs. More likely that need to be made aware of.
Time can really fly. Whether you’re having fun or not as it turns out.
The yearning, urging, or just plan boredom from exhaustion the past year has yielded. It’s time, of me at least, to spend time doing something I love whatever the outcome may be.
To not giving up.
For some this may be innate, for me it’s been a little like swimming joyfully in perfect blue waters, suddenly turning into a wild current, and then freezing over until a thaw occurs.
I just learned of this crazy idea - living successfully. From a cheery little book on mortality. It was in regards to how we make-up each day living this life, not some point to get to, or status to achieve.
This shift, along with encouragement and laughs from my fury friends, my most awesome mom, and y’all friends too have helped me, thank you!
With love. With laughs. With a few tears and only a scream or 2 into the void.
May we make it living a little more successfully and hopefully free from freezing by this time next week.
And maybe this painting will be finished too...
A walk along with painting everyday has lifted my spirits and feels like flying free after being cooped up inside during the catastrophic winter storms of 2021.